Just touched

This is a very common korean song with typical drama-romance plot but just felt very touched. It's a nice song.

Unnecessary fear?

I am feeling really blissful now. Very fortunate to have a beautiful family. Mum and dad that loves me so much. So much that I can hardly comprehend. I guess that is what we call unconditional love. Very grateful for God's providence to our family. All the comfort that we have now, it's grace of God.


I have been thinking about this for quite some time. Thinking of how much my parents dots on me. They seldom will say "NO" to my requests. They pacify me when I 发脾气. They comfort me when I'm sad. They provide for me when I desire for anything.

I asked my mum that day, " why do you love me so much?" She simply answered, "if I didn't want to love you, why in the first place I want to give birth to you?"

I don't think I did anything so good that I deserve this kinda love and attention from these two beautiful persons.

However as I feel grateful and bliss about this, fear grew within me. My parents are aging. As so many unpredictable things happen in the world, I can't help but imagining the worst. I am really very scared that one day something really bad happens to them. I seriously doubt that I will have the courage and strength to face it.

I pray that God will protect them. Grant them great health that they would love as long as possible. God, forgive me for having such selfish desire but I really can't bare to imagine how am I supposed to live without my parents. Amen.

4 more days

Just 4 more days of hell and I'm done. Can't wait to get this over and done with. I swear this is the worst thing I have done before in my life. A shame in my life, never ever want to mention about it again. Never ever

oink oink ^o^

I'm officially a pig. Haha... I slept 12 hours last night !! Haha... I don't know how I did it.

These days I have terribly big appetite. I can feel hungry one hour after having one meal. My cravings are also scary.. I crave for very high-calorie food like chocolate, cheese cake, crisps and full cream yoghurt. Oh gosh....

aarrggghhh

Don't know why the sudden urge of splurging. Feel like buying new wallet, new bags, nice dresses, pretty jewelery, sexy heels and many many more. Unfortunately, no money.... sob sob

1st Class

As I was browsing through facebook, I saw that one of my ex-classmate just graduated with a first class hon. I am so glad for her. Yet I feel kinda sour inside. Knowing that I can't even get second upper, I feel disappointed. Disappointed in myself. Nobody to be blamed, just myself.

breath.. trying to breath

Sigh... it's really a bad timing to fall sick. I am coughing so badly till my abdomen is feeling pain and head throbs like crazy. However I still have to hang on to help out the Freshmen Welcome Orientation Camp (FWOC). It's not that I am an enthu senior that is very excited to welcome new coming freshmen to join our 'family' in hall. It's just that I need to put up a show to others. In order for my DnD in September to run perfectly well, I need a lot of ppl's help. Help in creating awareness of DnD, create hype for the event and most importantly make everyone wants to come for the party. Hence now I need to help the FWOC ppl during this oreintation week hoping that other's will be more than willing to help me next.

I just feel that I am too old for all this exciting games and cheers. I have lots to do for my DnD but yet have to be present and help. I don't feel like socialising with ppl out there. I am comfortable with my own clique and space. Sigh.... Off I go to nap a while now. Still have to attend briefing later at 11 pm. :(